somewhere, a clock is ticking.

i'm not very sure when today happened. am i delusional?

i think i'm going to do this picture thing everyday. whenever i'm speaking to someone online or reading something they've written, i always have this desire to see their face as they type the words. i love silent video chats, partly because i'm a creeper, but partly because i think it's so interesting how we can paint our personalities all over the internet with our little fingers- and you don't have to use your face to back any of it up. i don't know, it's weird, but i like to have a visual. i've also got this weird thing about knowing where somebody is when they sit at their computer- like, when i visit somebody's pad for the first time, i always like to check out their command center so that the next time i talk to them online i can picture where they're at. okay, i'm rambling again- how did i even get into this? right- daily pictures. so, anyways, i think i will put up a picture everytime i post because i think it's nice to attach a visual to the words.

today i had a good conversation with a new friend that made me excited about our recent connection. it's refreshing to realize that my tendancies towards misanthropy do not come from a deference to inter-personal relationships but rather just a disenchantment with the rarity of genuity. it gets me thinking about how hard my shell has become in the past few years, and how, sometimes, i wish i could just go back to loving everyone and everything. i'm not sure if i'm going through a phase or i've just changed, but i am so grateful to be going through whatever it is i'm going through with an acute awareness and consciousness. i don't know how or why i'm able to have so much perspective on some of these things... but i think it's a good thing. for now, at least.

puddle dive of the day: woke up at 2pm

puddle jump: i can still feel