a white blank page and a swelling rage

sometimes i think i'm certifiably insane. tonight is one of those nights. here's to blogging because i can't afford therapy.

oops.

i'm taking a ride off to one side, it is a personal thing.

rather be pushing flowers than in the pen sharing showers

i've been researching sublets and i'm going to see a pretty spiffy-sounding place in JP on monday night- great situation, set-up, and price... so cross your fingers for me. i really hope i like it and am able to get it so that i can cross that off my list of stressers.

for my post-production video, i've decided to do "the top 10 reasons 'lil wayne is my dream celebrity prom date." the video is supposed to be autobiographical or at least tell something about you... so... that sounds about right. i think the class will get it but i'm iffy on my professor- if he doesn't think it's funny then i run the risk of freaking him out or just confusing him, either of which is not quite what i'm hoping for this early in the semester. oh well, can't win 'em all.

i have a whole bunch of things i feel like writing about but this doesn't feel like one of those posts. been having some really interesting thoughts about dreams lately though, so stay tuned for a whole bunch of bullshit thoughts of mine sometime in the near future.

done for now.

what if hitler had changed his mind?

what if he hadn't been such an insecure, arrogant, paranoid, delusional, psychotic, ill, stubborn, neurotic, embarrassed, awkward, unattractive, empty, unfeeling, naive, ignorant, uncomfortable, ugly person?

or what if millions of people just had the sense not to worship such a wretch?

puddle jump: free dry cleaning

puddle dive: i'm reading a book that is amazing yet makes me physically ill

get a grip or you're gonna get thrown

watch this:

that's all for right now.

the geeks were right

today was a good day!

i finally got a second job so i think i'm going to stay in boston for the summer instead of going home like i'd originally planned. hopefully now i can make some serious monies so that shipping off to LA may happen sooner than i thought. i'm aiming for an early september departure, so we'll see what happens.

i'm entirely too exhausted to write anything else tonight, so i'll leave you with the best thing i heard all day:

"and that's what adulthood is: you wake from the nightmare and realize there's no bigger bed to climb into."

puddle dive: my webcam is broken :-[

puddle jump: cheesecake factory here i come!

i built your cupboards out of my bones, shoveled your snow with an ice cream cone

so reading over those earlier entries i'm totally ashamed of my half-assed attempt at blogging at the beginning of the summer. i wrote a bunch of really lame entries and then as soon as my life got interesting i stopped updating. SO! i'm back. my life is not nearly as exciting now as it was for the past 6 months while i was living and working in hollywood... but oh well. can't win 'em all.

just a few small notes tonight. baby steps back into the blogging world.

-this is what i want to tell people every time they ask me why i want to be an editor-
(at about 2:20) http://www.makingof.com/insiders/artist/30/ryan-brown

-i watched a really good documentary about typography tonight called "Helvetica." a lot more interesting that i thought it would be (after all, it's about a font) and worth checking out whether you're into graphic design or not. i think you can probably find it online, or netflix it.

well it's 3am so that means lights out for me.

puddle jump: homework these days really only includes watching and reading about really interesting things

puddle dive: hangover city until about 5pm today :-/